Falling Into You by Jascinda Wilder

Falling Into You

by:  Jasinda Wilder

Lately I have been reading books that are heart wrenching.  I place this blame squarely on the shoulders of Karla Nellenbach.  She knows what she did.

Falling Into You by Jasinda Wilder is no different.

Nell Hawthorne has been in love with Kyle Calloway as long as she can remember.  They're best friends.  When you're sixteen you don't think about forever.  But when tragedy strikes and Kyle is suddenly and irrovacably wrenched from Nell she is forced to face life without him and forever becomes very real.

This book has stayed with me.  I gave it three stars on Goodreads and I stand behind that rating, but now I do wonder why I can't seem to let this one go?  

The first part of the book is about Kyle and Nell and their journey to move from friends to boyfriend and girlfriend to lovers.  It was lovely.  It was poignant.  It was everything your first love should be.  Nell and Kyle may have moved on and lived happily ever after, but with his death, she is forced to face some hard truths.

Like the life she had mapped out for herself may not be the one she is best suited to.

After the funeral the book picks up a few years later.  Nell is carrying some scars from Kyles loss.  She blames herself.  When she and meets up with Colt, Kyle's estranged older brother, there have been some changes in her life and they become obvious quickly.  

I really liked how the author didn't turn this into Colt saving Nell or vice versa.  This story is about moving on and learning to live with loss.  It's not always easy, and in Nell's case it was somewhat self destructive, but you can do it.  

Colt was a deceptively intense character who jumped off the page at me.  His relationship with his parents, with his brother, with Nell, they were all clearly outlined and the more we learned the more I wanted to know.  This was not the golden son, like Kyle, Colt was son that had to work twice as hard for everything.  

I don't think I loved this story, but it made me think.  It stayed with me and it kept me turning the pages.  It wasn't a feel good kind of book, but it was well done and I did want these two to find their own happily ever after so in the end it was a good read for me.  Plus the sex scenes were hot and intense and I am looking forward to reading more of her work.

Have you read it?  What did you think?